Saturday, March 04, 2006
~ To my dearest Sister ~
9:23:00 pm
Was on my way home from work when suddenly, I thought of her... Standing at the corner in the MRT, looking at the sceneries outside and my mind started to wonder...
When was the last time we spent a day out together and not having to worry about anything?
When was the last time we sat down and had a heart-to-heart talk with her?
When was the last time we had shared a secret with each other?
It's been a long time I guess... Especially ever since she started working... She, with her irregular working shift, and me, with my unpredictable work schedule...
Anyway, the person I'm talking about here is none other than my one and only sister...
I realised that I really miss her...
Yes, the sisterly bond that the both of us shared is still strong... We still communicate, talk to each other everyday (except when I don't meet her cuz of our work timing), ask each other how's the day and such...
But I miss those times when we would have our 'sisterly' talk before bedtime... I miss going out with her during my free days... I miss doing up her hair into all different kinds of 'style' (note the inverted commas)...
I have sacrificed a lot of my time for her, even the rest of my family, because of work... Whenever I get back from work, I would be so drained out and I would prefer to just rest and keep quiet... I do anticipate this coming of course, but to the extend of affecting me emotionally, I don't...
Of course, we had our squabbles and arguments here and there... There are also times when we would say, "
I don't like you" or "
I wished you weren't here" kind of stuff... But deep down inside, we know we love each other very much that we would protect one another...
All I can say now is...
Kakak, I really miss you...Maybe, this is what she felt when I first started working too...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
